This is the other part of my journey. This is one of the hardest times for me. I just don’t know what to do and what to say. I am so disappoint and I feel so terrible now. I had been through such a terrible thing before but I wonder why it still feels the same. It is hurting and it still hurting me. I know that I deserve to be happy. I know that I deserve to get the best because I have done the best I could. I …